Open Question: why is sexuality so hard?

[feedcrawler]

ive grown up always attracted to girls, ive always looked at girls and never looked at any guys sexually walking around, ive never wanted to get any further with any of my guy friends and have no steriotypical gay hangups, but i usually find myself masturbating to older, bigger men. its never been anal sex either just oral. im dating this girl now but the first time we tried to have sex i lost my erection. this led to me seriously questioning my sexuality, and now all i think about is sex; usually gay sex. i just want to fuck girls but now im too scared to try cuz i dont want to fail. ive been looking at viagra/kind of pills, and i get giddy when i think of all the girls i could be fucking once i know i can. I just dont want that anxiety and fear of failure, i want to fuck girls i just dont tihnk i can so does that make me gay? i dont like guys my age, or really at all and dont usually see myself with them, but since i cant fuck girls i must be gay? she turns me on and gets me hard all the time, im not like overly obsessed with tits, i like her ass and her legs and her feet(got kind of a foot fetish, for women only though..), shes beautiful and thin, but i also like the male anatomy. girls are much more beautiful and i see myself with them, except most of the time when im jacking off...am i gay or what because its really driving me insane. i feel like if i just get these pills and fuck a bunch of women ill be ok and my dick will work, but am i only fooling myself? i love women and more importantly want to love women, but i dont know if i can does that make me gay?

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