Open Question: Ok, so i mistakenly dirty talked with a cousin...I feel awful about it...?

[feedcrawler]

Ok. So I'm 15. I'm being 100% honest. I'm the nicest guy ever. I really am. I don't do the dirty shit. I have so much respect for women. I went to a family reunion and I met my cousin who is 30. I started talking to her and she started to talk dirty... I never really did anything bad so I mistakenly went with it and kind of got turned on by the way she was talking... I told her some really personal info. I have a foot fetish, and i told her... After I got done talking to her, I felt awful... Absolutely pitiful... I had the feeling that I wanted to throw up the rest of the day and all night... Anyways, I told her how I regret talking dirty. And she says it's fine but she absolutely loved it... I want her out of my life, but don't know how to do it. My family plans to have more get-to-gethers and I just can't get over it. She talks to my dad occasionally and I know she won't say anything to him about this because she would get in trouble as well. I just want to feel like she's out of my life. I want to move on. I don't want to feel sick to my stomach any more... I know how serious this situation is. And I just want to try and forget about it... Is there possibly a way to "Lie" about everything I said? Like, I didn't mean anything. It was all a joke? Please help me out. I don't want to feel worse than I already do. So please be nice. I greatly appreciate constructive criticism but please be respectful! Thank you!

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