Open Question: I'm concerned about where my life is heading: sex, porn, masturbation, fetish, routine. Read on?

[feedcrawler]

I have been married just over a year. I have been with my wife for years, and our sex life started off great, but after we got married, we got our own space, and our sex life went from once or twice a week, to barely once a month now. I dont know what it is. I find myself masturbating regularly, at least once a day, sometimes twice a day, I watch porn, or I'm on fb looking at pictures of her gorgeous sister, who I fear I have an obsession with. I love my wife, I do, but she doesnt really make the effort she used to, but dont get me wrong, I cant expect her to look glammed up all the time. And when we do have sex, its always me doing all the work, i find it tiring. It's really put me off, its so much easier to have a wank. I dont know what it is, but when i watch porn, it looks so good, the girls are gorgeous, they do things my wife wont. My wife wont give oral, she hates it. I did tell my wife months ago we should spice our sex life up, but she didnt really listen. Thats why i love porn so much, but it frustrates me i will never be able to do certain things with my wife. Oh and i have a major foot fetish, and i have never told any one. i would love my wife to give me a foot job, or let me c.um on her feet, but i could never tell her this. Her sister has gorgeous feet, thats another thing that drives me crazy, living this secret life, stuck in a routine and feeling trapped, and perversed. And what scares me most recently is that I have been enjoying bi-sexual porn, ie 2 men and a woman. I'm not gay, i dont know why i have been watching it from the norm. i need therepy. but can't afford it. help. serious comments only. real help needed. I cant avoid her sister, she's apart of the family, i will continually run into her the rest of my life. I have tried secretly filming her, especially her feet, with my phone, i know i shouldnt but i just want to have a clip I can take home to masturbate to. I have been doing the same thing at work as well...filming girls at work...i know its so risky because if i get caught im dead! It's not that i have too much time on my hands, i find my days dont have enough time in the day to do the things i need to, in fact its because i am usually so busy, i dont really just concentrate on my wife, i dont have the convenience. I dont know if i make myself jobs or if i really have things to do. I dont think i watch too much porn, sometimes ill just put on babestation, but i guess thats the same principle. or ill think about her sister, even sometimes during the times me and my wife do have sex. i am struggling financially and so i cant afford to do well pretty much anything that costs, buyin

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