Open Question: I have a wierd situation help please as a christmas present to me (:?

[feedcrawler]

Okay so im going to warn you im its not gonna be short but your help would be awesome so im wierd okay im a 16 year old male anf im about 5 foot 4 and i wheigh about 220 pounds i know im obese and fat the thing is though is that i get fat on purpose i have a wierd fetish with fat girls and me getting fatter i know its wierd but its the way i was made now deep inside me getting bloated and eating a ton and haveing a huge gut like my gut is so large like my gut when i stand is a little more yhen 51 inches around its huge and is covered ibsttetch marks and i have huge man boobs like huge but like i said i like it buy i know its awful for my health and i mean so like its hard to decide i mean my parents make me go to the local gym abd i kbow its awful but i just go to the cafe abd eat a ton well i have a rutibe first i go and i get 4 cans of coke large fries chicken fingers burger and chips i eat it all theb i go to the locker room and i strip down and i walk aroind in a towel just to see what peoplr do wheb they see me they look in disgust but is my hapoirnes of being fat bettrr then my health

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