Open Question: I feel unhappy. I'm infatuated with a guy who is a manipulator, what's more I'm starting to feel envy and hate?

[feedcrawler]

I'm currently at college, and I got obsessed with him. When I met him I tried to catch his eye, nothing about sex, I only wanted to be his friend. He was always bragging about his "bring-offs" in sports, and debunking other people with cutting remarks, that's why I had a crush on him.He is so popular and he always gathers togheter a bunch of suckers listenting to his stories.I started talking to him to break the ice, and he gave ear to my words attently, so I felt so happy, when I talked to other guys, he pretended to be interested in my conversations, that's why he could elicit information from me, to such a degree that I confessed to him that I was gay, and all my foot-fetish stuff. He enjoys using me as his plaything, I think that is just for fun. He talks to me every now and then, then he gives the cold treatment. When I start to get fed up (after days) of his cold treatment, he talks to me and smiles, and make sounds to catch my attention, when I'm "crawling" to him he just ignores me.Now, I have decided to get him over and to put the kibosh on my stupidness. He's now attempting to talk to me, but although I would've wished to be friends, I realize he has no scruples in playing with the people, and it's better for me to get him over.I feel to a certain degree some hate, envy and grudge towards him for his populariy. I feel so ludicrous, so ugly, so geek. How to get him over quicklier regarding that I have to see him almost everyday?

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