Open Question: I feel guilty for filming a fetish video?

[feedcrawler]

Well it covered foot fetish, ballbusting, horse whipping (on my back) and trampling. There is an adult film company in my town which specializes in this and I needed the $1000 for bills. I'm scarred (due to the whipping) and in pain but I now have $1000, but I feel guilty about it and don't want it any more. What should I do? I know it sounds stupid but I've never tried anything like it before so I thought I would.

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