Open Question: Why do I have the urge to pay women with pretty feet?

[feedcrawler]

It started when I was yovng and it's been with me ever since. Now I'm 35 and it has grown to the point whereas I pay women to let me massage their feet. And I'm not talking small change, at least $100 for 1 hour. After a years of this expense I started to analyze what I was doing and realizing how I'm wasting money. Why the money well it was giving me hope that this beautiful lady would want to be with me since I'm show compassion and financial stability to spend 100 bucks to give her a foot massage and of course dinner. Yeah I know I can basically give a foot massage to a woman for free, but I like to show them that I have money even for the little things. Now I'm in the stage of my life whereas if a woman don't have pretty feet I can't date her which is the first thing I ask after a couple of mutual conversations. I know this is called a fetish, but how do I destroy it? I caught myself glaring at another women foot in a shoe store, really her feet was emaculate, like a angel from heaven. I really wanted to give her every dollar in my wallet just to massage, which would eventually led to her having her toes sucked after inspection in private, hopefully. Another incident happened at the strip club, and everyone in there was looking at me in amazement when they notice that the dancer was using her feet to pursue me into giving her $20 all she was doing was wiggling her toes on my table. Some people look at it likes it crazy or nasty, and I agree if the lady been walking around barefoot and didn't wash them before a person began there desire. So how do I kill this fetish and keep my eyes off of women feet during the summer time?

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