Open Question: Am I messed up? What can I do? Any advice?

[feedcrawler]

I'm 26, consider myself to be straight and yet have never been on a date with a girl, had sex with a girl or even kissed a girl. It's gotten me to a point where I've messed around with transsexuals--I find their feminine side attractive. I want to find a real girl, but just don't know what to do. I also have some odd fetishes, some of which i won't share. I love feet and sneakers and i'm also a crossdresser. I don't know how these fetishes or my other ones came about, but i think it only makes a real relationship with a girl (and even honest ones with friends) very difficult. I've always had trouble making/keeping friends and many times i don't even make it into the dreaded "friends mode" with girls. I feel like i'm being avoided by people. I'm shy, but when people get to know me I can be a bit weird as I have a darker sense of humor and still act like a kid sometimes. It's all pretty harmless, but I still struggle to understand people. Is there something I missed growing up?

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