Open Question: 10 POINTS should I have sex with my boyfriend again?

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Me and my boyfriend have been dating a year. When we first met he was a virgin and I wasn't. He right away told me that he wasn't ready for sex yet and that he wanted to wait. I agreed and gave him his time. As a few months went by I thought that he would be ready so I talked to him about it again, and I found out that the reason he was so hesitant about sex is because he has a foot fetish (please don't judge) and so he was scared of sex because he's only ever been interested in feet and not the whole thing. Well we first did it a few months ago when we had been dating for 7 months. He said that he liked it and it felt good and I was so relieved because we could have a pretty normal relationship. I even promised to include his fetish into our sex lives. So after we did it a few times he kept getting less and less interested. He would make up excuses that he's tired or he just simply didn't want to. Well after getting rejected so many times I asked what is his problem?!?! He couldn't really give me a straight answer other than that this is how he's lived since he was a kid, his dad used to yell at him saying that if he ever has sex when he lives in his house he'll get kicked out. And I think that's how the fetish got started. Well after getting rejected and hurt so many times I dropped the whole sex thing. The last straw was on Valentine's day, I didn't bring it up at all but I wanted to see if he was going to get romantic at all and he didn't. So at the end of that day I told him I was done with sex. Now it's been about 2 months since we've had sex and NOW he's starting to ask ME about it. But I'm still hurt! He says that he's changed that he's realized the importance of sex and that he did like it but he was just scared and he's telling me all of this, but I'm just SOO MADD. It took a lot for me to stop asking him for it..because I LOVE HIM and I wanted to express to him through that, but after getting rejected my self esteem went downhill..I now feel fat and ugly and not loved at all. And I can't just turn around these feelings now that he's changed his mind. Everytime we talk about sex we get into an argument and I just don't know what to do anymore.. I want him to prove that he's changed but I don't know exactly how he can do that.. I want him to feel the pain I did when he rejected me..and although that's selfish that is how I feel.. please any advice

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