Open Question: Boy 14, my fetish of girls clothes?

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I am 14 years old and i am a boy - but i think i want to be a girlbut i just dont get it - im not gay, i dont like boys - i like girls - and i want to be a girl (i think)whenever my family go out shopping (i stay at home) i always go into my sisters wardrobe - i just cant help myself. I always put on her quite short school skirt and her skin coloured tights, also her blouse tie and her little black dolly shoes. it feels so good - and i feel good walking in front of the mirror - my legs always look really feminine. but i always get an erection which spoils it!I dont know what the next step is - no one knows about this and i dont think i want anyone to knowi would like to go outside to a shopping centre one day dressed fully as a girl (makeup, wig etc) i know i could pull it off without looking like a boy - but i wouldnt have enough time with my parents Then one day I was stupid I am 14 as i said and walked in my sisters room while she was downstairs and I had just seen on tv of a boy in girls clothes and being the only male in the house it just popped in my head to try her clothes on so I took my clothesof and put on her White knickers and bra and stuffed them with tissue and her chicken fillets then I looked in her washing basket and found her school uniform of the last few days so I took it out and he had a blue Lycra skirt White blouse black Riggs and tie so I put on 5 pairs of her tights to cover up my leg hair and it sort of hurt the area so I pulled up her skirt on my legs and you felt it push my legs together and then I rolled it up I then put on rest of clothes I was looking in full length mirror when my sister ran in she walked up to me in shock I then pleaded her not to tell she agreed if I was her doll so I agreed she then did my hair with her extensions and then make up but she said I was a real girl so coverd me in fake tan redressed me and put padding in my knickers I was fully dressed as a girl and the next few days after school I went home changed into this and she took me pictures while mom was at work at school I was bullied for fake tan and luckily not caught with the knickers bra and tights I had to wear beside pe days she called me bobbie-joAt school it gets worse I annoyed my sister and she told her mate on my year now They come up to me and push me to the wall and say that they think i am sexy(sarcasticly) and pinch myy bottom which is very embarrassing. At play time they touch me with their feet which is very uncomfortable (especially because they wear black tights and everyone watches). Three of them in particular take me to the back of the school and squeeze me with their legs untill I cry and they kick me and roll up their skirts (which are already as short as miniskirts and laugh when they see me horrified. recently, some of them have started to sit on my lap, pull their skirt up and pee, so it wets my area and looks like I have peed. They have dark transparent tights so it doesnt show up on them but it does on me and everyone laughs. One girl is really tall and thinks its funny to squeeze my head between her boobies and the wall in front of everyone. Im actually very weak and not very fast at all so i cant run and I have tried running away but I get caught because I am a bit chubby. I think im being picked because they are jealous that I am clever. Its very embarrassing. Please please please help. Its too embarrassing to tell the teachers. I am also made to kiss their bums. They once put me In there clothes and wig wit make up robbed mine and made me walk home in the rain to luckily a empty house of mom at work. My sister was there tho and laughed at me in these tights, skirt , dolly shoes and all a full girls unifor With bag I was humiliated and at the edge I have had enough THIS IS NO TROLL AND NO JOKE I HATE MY LIFE

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