Open Question: How am I sexually attracted to a person that I dislike!?

[feedcrawler]

There's this guy that is a rude to all my friends and he laughs and ignores me that's why I hate his guts. But today I had some "feelings" about him. He wore flip flops all day and I got turned on by staring at his barefeet (yes I have a foot fetish), but not usually for guys I dislike. After having fantasies about this guy I feel so disgusting and I keep wondering why I have these feelings? I know that I probably can't change this, but I don't want to feel disgusted all the time.

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