Open Question: embracing my foot fetish vs controlling my urges?

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Many say dont fight the fact I have a foot fetish. Embrace it. Enjoy it.I am never barefoot around others. I never have been my whole life. I get excited when I am. I find it kinky, like a taboo. It would be so out of character for me. I know its incredibly natural to most to be barefoot in front of others.I have recently purchased some flip flops. I wore them to post some mail. As I p@ssed people, i had such a rush. It felt like they were looking at me, my feet. But they probably werent. I dont know. Its so weird to me. The rush was from people lookin, to my barefeet, to the fear and excitement of seeing someone i know.I am very controlled about where i wear them. I plan ahead, think who i may see etc. This is me embracing it.Today, i went to a convenience store in the flip flops again. It was a busy store. and it had been raining all day. Perhaps looked out of place. I dont know. I had the same rush. Were people looking at me etc...it was so sexually thrilling.I do not want to become addicted to doing this. I do not want to become opportunistic. Where do i draw the line between embracing something, and being in control of it?my whole life has been based on being in control, planning the worst case scenario's etc, and i fear slipping up one day and somebody seeing me barefoot, and word goes back to my family. It would be really weird to them if they heard i was seen in flip flops somewhere.help!!today, i purposely went to a convenience store which is abit of a detour. I wanted to go to this one because I know there was minimum chance of seeing somebody I knew. In all, the event cost me about 25 minutes. My wife and kids wondered why i came home late from work. I lied and said traffic.its a secret i have held my whole life.today, i purposely went to a convenience store which is abit of a detour. I wanted to go to this one because I know there was minimum chance of seeing somebody I knew. In all, the event cost me about 25 minutes. My wife and kids wondered why i came home late from work. I lied and said traffic.its a secret i have held my whole life.today, i purposely went to a convenience store which is abit of a detour. I wanted to go to this one because I know there was minimum chance of seeing somebody I knew. In all, the event cost me about 25 minutes. My wife and kids wondered why i came home late from work. I lied and said traffic.its a secret i have held my whole life.today, i purposely went to a convenience store which is abit of a detour. I wanted to go to this one because I know there was minimum chance of seeing somebody I knew. In all, the event cost me about 25 minutes. My wife and kids wondered why i came home late from work. I lied and said traffic.its a secret i have held my whole life.

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