Open Question: Just wondering why am i too much irritated. Why every time we talked on the phone our talk leads to fight?

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We been together for almost 9 years but until now we did'nt meet in person yet. He said money is the problems that's why he didnt come here yet. Our only communication was phone and internet for 9 years we talked and chat if he has time to chat with me. I feel sometimes he is not sincere coming here, I feel that im only hoping for him to come here. I do feel that he loves me but why i doubted him He is foot fetish, there are times i searched his id's and found out those ids was subscribed to different foot fetish sites and he has friends that has almost perfect foot. When i confronted him thru here i told him he stupid and said all stupid mean words to him. HE said he didnt go in that site he's cousin was the one put all those bad things in the net but why all of his id's was connected to that stupid site foot fetish.I dont know what to think. I felt melting and shaking when i seen those stupid things in the net. I feel that im not enough with him thats why he is still searching for the girls. Sometimes i feel crazy thinking lot of things. He knows i do love him so much co'z if i dont love him i wont stay with him for 9 years. But why im afraid if this relationship will be wasted just because we fight too much. Every time he called me on phone even if the small things it leads to big deal. He said all i want is fight fight and fight. I wonder why am i acting like this. I dont know what will i do now. I dont know why im still holding on in this relationship. PLS I NEED YOU ADVICE. What will i do

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