Ok long story but there is this girl who I know who ive been friends with since kindergarden, as a matter of fact ive had a crush on her since then. It started off small, but since last year it has been very very strong. Im 13 now almost 14 and I dated her last year for a lil after I became like best friends with her. Anyways, I have been unable to not think about her for a split second for the past year, especially the last few months. I think I love her, because even though im yovng, I still feel this way after having her cry in front of me, show me the worst in her, and I even got screwed by her one time. She found out i "loved" her and she was really touched, she even started crying. And i tell her everything and she tells me everything, because were so close. Well shes been dating this boy for the last 4 months and they dont show any signs of breaking up. Well ive become very jealous in the last few months and im miserable because of it. Were like almost best friends, ive even seen her naked and shes let me do crazy things to her feet (i have a foot fetish) so its not like she doesnt like me, its just that she likes someone else more. I cant take it though, its controlling my life now. I realize shes just a girl, but shes more than that to me. I feel like shit everytime she mentions her boyfriend and I really wish it was me. Ive tried to date other girls but in the end I always realize that no one is as good as her. I just need to find a way to either get over her, or somehow get her to be mine.
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