Open Question: Can someone help me with a fetish that is a problem largely affecting my love life and mind.?

[feedcrawler]

This is embarrassing but I need help because this is affecting my way of life and I can't be normal anymore. Well, idk how, but I seem to have a foot tickle fetish... Yea I know... Idk how it arouses me but I can't live with it. I hate it and it's horrible it affects the way I think and I just wanna kill myself because of this... Well, me and a really beautiful friend of mine, cute face, nice voice, sweetlaugh, nice personality, amazing girl. We were chilling at my house she is a girl I had a crush on for two years... She came back from holidays recently... Anyway... Anyways, I tickled her feet, she didn't laugh and said she wasn't ticklish and I was pissed, because for me that seems really boy like because I am a guy and my feet are't ticklish either... So when we finished chilling, I walked her and said goodbye, we hugged and said bye, then I came back home and started getting really pissy because of my fetish. I don't know what is so arousing about tickling?!its playful gesture that people use a lot but I find it arousing and when I found out she wasn't ticklish I felt crap. I somehow stopped liking her and it led me to writing this. Why can't I be like a normal guy and just like boobs and ass, I can see how that arouses guys, and I like it as well, but I hate being aroused by tickling. SO my question is, how can you get rid of and permanently kill a fetish that is ruining your life? no hate please, I am only 15. And please don't tell me to embrace it, I can't because I don't like it. I hate this fetish. Btw, I only get aroused by women so this fetish doesn't make me gay but its annoying.

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