I met this boy online.. i instantly started liking him and we clicked so well, we spoke everyday all day morealess and spent most of our time together talk on weekends texting eachother. we've been talking for around two months now and only recently he's started getting really controlling, we started speaking on a sexual level quite early on in the friendship..it seemed so right as we got along very well together, i trusted him and he claimed to trust me. i found out that he had a foot fetish and i wanted to please him..so i watched porn to get some ideas on how to please him, a few days later he'd questioned me about watching it.. i tried to lie and say no to cover my embarrassment but after a while of him carrying on arguing with me i gave in and admitted it. he called me a liar and all of our problems started from there... he told me that he'd stopped talking to all of his friends for me and accused me of being a 'cheat' i offered to make another kik account (kik is like skype, or texting someone) just to make him gain his trust back. he made me promise not to talk to any of my friends so i did promise.. he wouldnt even let me add my sister onto the kik account to talk to her, later on that week..he'd carry on causing arguments every night, threatening to leave me..almost as thought he would threaten me just to see how much i cared and to make him feel wanted? later on in the week once i'd promised not to talk to anyone i spoke to one of my male friends on skype... i'd forgotten to say anything to him about me talking to my friend so later on that evening i let it slip by accident when he asked how many skype contacts i had, i read through the names and i accidently mentioned that i'd spoken to my male friend. he flipped out at me and called me a liar and told me i was lying to him again.. i just don't know what to do, he said i was beautiful without make up and i said i'd stop wearing it because it causes spots..then i sent him a picture when i was out and he flipped out at me for apparently promising and lying about wearing make up!! this boy won't even go on webcam for me, he says he feels uncomfortable with his skin. I just don't know what to do anymore..he says he wants to find a girl with a clean past, i messed around with a few times on skype with different boys and went on webcam
i am disgusted with what i did in the past and i really do wish i could take it back...i look back and cringe upon myself. i was going through a tough time, my friends left me and i guess it was just a way of boosting my confidence, i feel like im so attached to this guy... should i cut him dead or try to make it work? I'm 15 and this just doesn't feel normal...it all feels too much and i can no longer handle it. I'm not a stupid girl, but i just got so drawn into him :/ help me!!!
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