Open Question: I have a massage fetish...?
 

I am wondering if this is bad or not, because I have heard of people having fetishes such as, foot fetish, hand fetish, trampling fetish, etc. I have a massage fetish, I love receiving massages. I mean, more than the usual person does. I absolutely love it(not sexually like some of the foot fetish creeps xP), I even love watching others get massages, it makes me feel good inside. I would love to get a girlfriend who absolutely loves giving massages as much as I love getting them(a double fetish thing...). I know there is probably no girl in the world with a fetish like that, but I am wondering if I might need psychiatric help... I love massages so much that, if I see somebody tapping their pencil, pen, etc. off of a desk or rubbing the tip down the desk, and it makes a pleasing sound that reminds me of a massage, I hope for them not to stop, as it gives me a happy/pleasing feeling(yet again, not sexually for all the people that think I am just a perv...). I also love it when I am laying down in the middle of the night, and my cat starts kneading the blanket on top of me, it reminds me of a massage and somewhat feels like one, so I love it and hope for it not to ever stop. Even though this is the internet, I still feel absolutely embarrassed typing this up..., but I really want to know if I may need psychiatric help, and if this is a normal thing, how do I satisfy my massage fetish(without having to pay, I don't have a lot of money, so that is my big problem). Would it be normal to try to find a beautiful girl that has a fetish of rubbing people's bodies(massage)? Plz halp! Also, Massage chairs have no effect on me, they are robotic things that I care not for... The only massage chair I ever liked, was one at the mall(it felt reaaaaaaaaally good)!

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