Open Question: Please explain why this turns me on! Am I weird?

[feedcrawler]

I just broke up with my girlfriend. We were together for 4 years.When we were together, I started getting a little weird. I like peeking at her in the sh0wer and then I started acting on a foot fetish.We're still friends now, and she told me about her new boyfriend. She admitted to being intimate with him, and she said she enjoyed it.At first it kind of hurt, like really grossed me out and I thought about it all the time. Now it turns me on thinking of her getting nailed by someone else. I would like to watch it happen now.Our sex life honestly wasn't that great and that's a big reason we broke up. What is up with this fetish? Is this weird?

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