Open Question: is there any hope for me here?

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im 20 years old and i was diagnosed with aspergers at age 3. I have an unusual sexual feelings knowen as fetishes I have a fetish for being in shorts down to my knees while wearing rubber thongs on my feet and i also have a fetish for balloons. it really sucks because i get much stronger sexual gratification when i look at a picture of a hot girl while wearing knee shorts and rubber thongs on my feet. I never been in any relationship iv never even hugged a girl and iv spent time trying to imagine what it feels like to hug a girl but i just cant seem to produce that feeling. I suppose its not unusual for someone with aspergers to experience fetishes as i read somewhere that fetishes happen to people with pore social skills. As with my balloon fetish while I dont need a balloon to get sexually aroused It is embarrassing around other guys but not girls. My loving supportive mum and dad know about the balloon fetish ad they say its OK as long as it makes me happy iv gone quite far to hide balloons from them mum and dad as its just embarrassing. my concern is will i ever loose my virginity and if I do get a girlfriend what am i gonna be like when i try to have sex

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