Some background info needs to be addressed first. I am a straight male, but I have a slight fetish for mtf transsexuals. But it is not the penis I like, in fact I am not attracted to them. I like that they were a man and are a now a women. I like post-op MTF. But I would not go out looking strictly for transsexuals, I wouldn't care if I were to go out with a natural women or a post-op MTF. With that out of the way, I had a weird wet dream that has been really bothering me. In the dream I was in a big sh0wer. It was not running, and I had my clothes on. Then there was a pre-op transsexual in the sh0wer as well. You could see all of there parts (which I don't like). Then clothes just appeared on her. She then came up to me and french kissed me (so now I am aroused, not being able to see the penis). Then I can see three other guys sitting at a table a few feet away from me taking a picture of this and laughing under there breaths. Then after the MTF stop kissing me, she grabbed my hand and pulled it downwards.I resisted a a little bit, but she kept pulling my hand downwards. She put my hand onto the bulge in her pants and I cam and woke up freaked out. I don't think I came because of me touching it, but I am not 100% sure. Every time I think about her pulling my hand down, I get a little aroused (but in a bad way). It's not like I feel good thinking about it and then feel guilty and bad afterwards, it's feeling bad and guilty throughout thinking about it. The weird thing is I have thought about before and since this about preforming sexually acts with a penis on a MTF, and it is not arousing. If there is any arousal, it is from the fact that it is intercourse with a MTF (which is very rare, because the thought of sexual acts involving a penis disgusts me too much). This might be the case with this dream. But this dream still is bugging me. Does it really mean anything, or is it just random? It makes me question whether I am hetero or bisexual. Any feedback is appreciated.
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