Open Question: How can I make him love me after what I have done?

[feedcrawler]

My boyfriend of 3 years has left me today because, for the eighth time, I intentionally poured boiling oil on his foot. I know this is hard for me at this time but I keep trying to call him and he isn't answering (the nurse at the hospital thinks I am crazy for some reason).. I need to tell him that I was joking, which I really was. I mean my fetish is to see my partner in so much pain. It really turns me on and with some humor to it it makes it 10 times better.. I need someone's help please. My phone will not stop rining because his lawyer is calling me asking to date me in court or something! I have to tell him not to trust his lawyer before its too late! stupid hospital policies! what should I do?Much love! Linda R.

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