Open Question: Am I driven by the wrong motivator?

[feedcrawler]

I'm your typical male. I'm 36. I love women. I love all they have to offer. I watch adult movies. I take matters into my own hands. When it comes to relationships I can't seem to get it right and I'm wondering if maybe I'm driven by the wrong motivator.I have a HUGE foot fetish. I constantly find myself watch movies on youtube or elsewhere about it. I stare at girl's posteriors and find myself thinking about them almost obsessively. I don't necessarily think this is abnormal. I don't think about doing bad things to them, but at the same time I'm wondering if maybe the girls I date are because of these factors instead of better reasons. I was recently in a relationship with a girl that started very strongly with sexual attraction. It was probably the worst relationship I've ever had ... no it definitely was. The best relationship I ever had was with a stripper. I still think about her every day.I am lonely. I live with my ex-fiance. She has two kids and no job so I don't want to kick her out, but seeing her day in and day out still kills me even. I think about getting back with her all the time even though our relationship was not good at all. I like to think I take good care of my women. However, because I don't have a good education I have to work 70-80 hours a week. I like to play video games. My last two relationships ended for both these reasons. 1 was because I was never there, and the other one was because she didn't like that I played video games. I played them because they help me relax and our relationship was so bad/stressful I just always needed to "escape."I don't know what to do. I know that I want to be with someone, but I also know that it probably isn't a good time either. Am I being selfish? Or smart by not being in a relationship?

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